How Am I Not A Drug Addict?

i wonder sometimes. and i totally see why others can be and there's no judgement on my end.

Things That Require Sitting For A Long Time

going to the movies
driving to work, to GA, driving ANYWHERE
sitting at a desk
using the desktop computer
eating at a restaurant
any spectator event
getting a haircut
waiting rooms

so i stand a lot, when i can. change positions. straight up laid down on the floor at the Rave one day and dared anyone to say something.

Things That Require Standing For A Long Time

working
shopping
going to an amusement park
standing in line
concerts
cleaning

i'm guessing a lot of people take these for granted. and i don't anymore.

*after intercourse, i can barely use my right leg, and it stays that way for at least 3 days.
*it hurts the entire time. i do not like it. i like that he likes it, thats about it. to even become aroused is painful.
*i will go days without #2. days. sometimes a week. diet, pills, supplements, whatever. its a constant chore and requires planning on my part.
*i don't want to hang out a lot. for me to be physically comfortable is tough. And i will need to be able to adjust and i only feel able to do that around some people. i can't just lay in anyone's living room floor.
*i'm exhausted by the end of the day. i might not want to come out with you. maybe i do, and if when i get there i'm not a cheerleader, forgive me. i want to be out, just might not have the energy to be part of it.